EXAM'S OVER!!!

YES!!! finally after all these "years" i did not have the chance blog i finally get to online. lolx.ya exams over but it's not practically over cause i still have another paper to go. Information Technology paper. Darn. well i don't know what to do in the holidays. I wanna learn driving, learn more guitar, basketball and also mandarin language. i also want to work. maybe in jusco i think. oh ya and i definitely wanna hang out with my friends. hmmm life? my life? i guess it's kinda ok now. i mean everyone will have their ups and down right? ya im fine. i just can't wait to finish my last paper and im not studying haha. oh ya i went to sue ean's blog and from there i click on the link to her sister's blog. her blog is nice. and she mention bout a girl who wrote a book at the age 15 and her novels are a great hit. how i wish i could write a book too. i've tried a few times i mean try to write a book but i will stop halfway. i got all the ideas but sadly my english sucks and i can express my ideas. im weak in grammar. my vocab is not that big too :( it's time to grow up now. im 17 and im out of school. i need to plan for my future. well that's what everybody said. you ought to plan for your future or your life will be doomed. lol. oh ya to any guitarist out there i just learned a nice song. everything you want by vertical horizon. very nice. click on the link and you will get to the tabs in no time. i certainly ran out of ideas now. i can't think what to write anymore. sad. well till here then.

growing up

hmmmm everyone is growing up already. they turn to leng chais and leng luis already. seventeen this year and next year all the form fives will be working, learning to drive and some might even get married. lol suddenly i miss my good pal, my best friend since form one, jonathan lim. he is kl now since he left ipoh two years ago. sad case. i dun have any other friends other than him during that days. wait i dun mean i dun have any friends but he is the closest to me. we do everything together, go anywhere in school together. we were so close untill others gall us gays. lolx we dont mind ,it just make our friendship stronger :) we play basketball. we love basketball and we play guitar too. he is better than me in those two things. still envy him for that. i learned guitar earlier than him but whoa look at him now! he plays for his church and to get into the band is tough and he made through. this really shows that he is someone. i just realize that we haven been contacting each other for so long. the reasons why we did not contact each other is we both using different line, he is using hotlink while im using digi. it is expensive to msg each other and so we end up contacting each other less and less by each day.haihz wondering how is he doing now. i know he is leading a wonderful life there with new friends. happy for him :) i think all my good memories in school with him is gone the same day he shifted to kl. i really cant remember much whether i had a good time and enjoyed my school days now. its so sad. i want to remember something when i am older and when i want to look back on my teenage years in the future. everyone have their own problems and this is my problem. well another thing i REALLY REALLY need a singing lesson. oh my god. when will i be able to sing nicely. i mean not until becoming a singer but just want to make my singing a little pleasant to hear. dunno why kinda moody these days. i think its because spm is coming. sad case.well here is the lyrics for one of my song which i created.

Friends Friends by me


verse1

friends friends

what are friends for

nothing i could ask more

you should know



verse2

friends friends

so much we can do

there's always something new

i know it's all true



bridge

together we strive forward

together we look forward



chorus

we put our best foot forward

and struggle onwards

we traveled the world

traveled the universe

never afraid

cause we know

cause we know

cause we know

we are friends forever



verse3

friends friends

we shall remember

what we did together

always ever



verse4

friends friends

together we hold hands

till we reach the end

again and again



then straight to chorus and repeat three times before end :)

this is dedicated to all my friends out there and for those who have lots of friends. appreciate them more. thats all till now.

life...

life is nothing but a journey. haihz. spm is coming.......i just cant concentrate i dont know why. im still far behind. oh my god! everyone also is having the same problem. my friends all are stressed up. some are too stress till they break down and cry while some feel like they have been cheated in their life and would not want to put hope in anything already. so sad. me? i know i am so far behind, i've thought about being more hardworking but i just cant make my thoughts come true. i've tried studying but i will always end up sleeping. ARGH!!!! all of us are struggling to get good results for our own reasons. for example to obtain scholarship or to make our parents proud. there are so many reasons and will we be able to achieve it in this few days? nothing is impossible i know but .... after spm everyone will change and we might not be able to see our friends again. everyone will go with their our way. but i know i wont forget my friends wan. :) another thing im sad about is that in these few years im studying in school i cant recall any good memories. i dun remember a thing! well i really really hoping that all my friends will be studying hard now and they will get what they always wanted. and ill be among them too. good luck and all the best. just remember ill be here for you always.

mask 2

hmmm jo commented bout wearing mask thingy in her blog. perhaps what she say might be true. by not wearing mask we might get conned and people will take advantage of us. haihz. but i dont know how to put on a mask ma...sob sob..well dun care la...maybe one day i will pick up this skill lol haha in library wanna study but cannot. cant concentrate and always end up chatting with my good fren jocelyn hehe:). oih ya yesterday i learned from kah nyan that in scrabble there is this word JO which means loved ones in some other language. forget what language liao. hehe. i also found out that this good fren of mine like one of her good fren. that guy is always single and available. haha happy for my good fren. :) well till here then. tata

wearing mask

i always believe that we human live life through many phases. in fact i can also say we humans live life through many faces. this is the truth. in reality we always try to be someone different when we meet different kind of people in our daily life. we tend to put on masks that hides the true self or our true character. this is what i just learned recently. all my friends told me that to be in pace with the real world we need to put on masks. well i nvr put on masks before and i dont think i will know how in future. maybe im just being myself. thats me i dont need masks. im happy when im happy and im sad when im sad. people around me have problems and they tend to hide it by wearing masks. i just cant. i mean even if i want to hide it i cant. ppl will know i got problem and i will say no i dun have any problem. but there is this word 'PROBLEM' that stuck on my forehead. i cant hide it. perhaps its a skill that i will have to acquire. but does wearing masks at all time is beneficial? what can it do to us, to me i mean? i've seen some of my friends who had to go through hardship in school and at their very own home. they cant tell no one for they afraid what might happen next if they tell. they feel like committing suicide at times. so they keep their problems to their own self and wear a mask everywhere they go. you might see them happy and jovial on the outside but deep down in their heart and soul they long for some place or some one to share and pour out their problems with.
so end of the day i keep asking myself and think is mask a neccessary when what it does is only to accumulate our problems to ourselves and finally we break down and emotionally abused? besides if i want to wear a mask what kind of mask should i wear ? should i put on the hollow mask that is worn by the famous bleach anime character? that mask will turn me into a bad guy but i have great powers. or should i wear the mask that is worn by THE MASK himself? you know when you wear that mask you will turn green? if i wear that ,it surely will turn me into a lame and bad joker just like THE MASK. its surely a no-no. perhaps i should wear a mask like what the phantom of opera wears. when i wear that mask i made myself unlikable and freak others out. haihz i really dont know how u guys out there can put up such a mask that will destroy you slowly inside.
i live with my own principle which is i dont care about everything. im the one who says dont care whenever something bad or good happens to me. its my way to make me not to worry about stuffs and guess what itreally does make my life more cheerful. im not saying i wont or never will get sad but with my dont care attitude im able to get over my sadness, frustration or anger very fast. im pretty sure that people who takes things seriously in their life will experience a great burden on their shoulders. this is because they care just about everything. even small stuff that is minor are able to make them sad or affect their lives.
what im saying is we all live life through many phases and along these phases we have to put on many faces. thats all. welll im in the library now where im supposed to study but im right here blogging bout what i feels right now. spm is in few weks time but i just cant help it i cant keep what i feel or think to myself , and that is because i dont wear a MASK! :)

Hari Raya!

On Hari Raya i had a small party. David, Lau Kong, Aik Khuan, Aik jun , Jocelyn and Kah Nyan was invited. well it was fun . Everyone was enjoying myself especially me. this is the first time i invited friends over to my house.After dinner we played some card games and even chess. LOL! Then the next day we went to jusco and watched resident evil 3: extiction. It was a nice movie but i was freezing cold in the cinema. I can't stand cold. I was shaking so hard that my friend had to give up his shirt to cover me :) thanks lau kong and jo!




Life around me is totally unpredictable, friends around me are getting insane cause of SPM. Some are happy with their life cause they have gotten what they wanted. and others just sad cause of personal problems. No matter what i will still be by their side and go through this journey of life together :) promise. to jo...study hard and get good results ya! Jia yo! to lau kong Cheer up and enjoy life! well to sue..hehe these are for you..

garfield and bear bear
another garfield and bear bear


oh my god! another garfield with bear bear hehe...


hmmmm as normal i never study and still playing so i wonder how will my SPM be? hmmm i wonder i wonder...oh ya my singing sucks to the max ..someone PLEASE HELP ME!!!! i need a tutor! Haihz.

Results

hey!
yer my trials results very bad! but wat to do i din study ma. hehe. congrats to those who passed with flying colours. im sure they studied like mad .hmmm school is getting boring as ever and spm is one more month to go. OMG! am i ready? certainly not! Arghhhh dunno y cant get any ideas to create songs.no nice melody pop up in my head its all just the same melody. haihz. now i und why songwriters get frustrated easily haha. perhaps i should wait for something nice to pass by and bam! the 'greatest song ever created' haha joking. well till then. bye